Saturday, February 25, 2006
i saw sth v disturbing yesterday which made me realise tt voilent families still exist arnd us. i'll explain wat happened so tt u guys can visualize it yourselves. ok here goes.. i was at Jurong pt yesterday as usual to have my lunch.while i was walking towards one of the shops, i saw this malay family.to tell u the truth, this was not your typical happy family.they certainly have issues. ok. wat shocked me really the father was trying to stop his son from crying by carring him on his shoulders like some gunny sack. it was a sad sight.i mean the father was holdin the poor bor by his legs! can u imagine! the poor lad was crying and screaming his lungs out while his livid father was equally shouting at him to stop. tell me. how can your treat your child with such violence?? what has he done to deserve such hate-driven father?? it really heart-aching me just to watch from the sidelines. helplessly. somehow, i can feel the boy's pain. mayb its because i once had such a dad? yea. tts right. not a dad who comes back from work in the evening with a worn out smile on his face n a loosened tie around his neck. No.. all i had was one who wld always come back late at night, in a drunken stupor, wreaking of alcohol, n throwing up every once in a while. yes, tt was the kind of dad i had... i used to remember waking in the middle of the night up n seeing him vormit into this small plastic bag left by mom. i felt pity for him, but at the same time, i was angry. angry at him for getting drunk all the time. i used to ask god 'why cant i have a normal dad like everyone else?' i was sick of getting beaten up for the smallest of mistakes. i was more sick of seeing him beating my mom for reasons unknown to me at tt time. i felt helpless when mom came out crying aft getting beaten up and shouted at. useless dad. she was the only one who wld stand by your side no matter wat happens, and this is wat u do to her?? i felt v small at tt time. i cant do anytin but to shut my eyes and go to sleep and pray to god tt they wont happen again the next day. but they always did. now. aft mom left him, we're a happy family. not a complete one, but certainly a happy one. for years the words 'papa' nerver left my mouth to address anyone. never. haiz.... all tt was in the past. i put tt all behind me. i forgave my dad for being wat he was n thanked him for doing all the things tt he did because they made me who i am today. im v thankful to god. at least i didnt turn out a rich spoilt brat like those u wld see on the streets. good news is, i heard tt he'd turn over to a new leaf. Amin to tt. i just hope tt dads all over the world wont treat their families like mine did. on this note, i shall end my post here.

Monday, February 20, 2006
WAH!!!

DAMN SIAN AH!!

im skipping lunch rite now. i cant bear to drag my swollen ankle arnd anymore. ok.. maybe i can.
got loads of work to do rite now which i just dont wanna care abt at the moment coz HELL, ITS LUNCH BREAK!! haha. oh btw.ITS FREAK'IN COLD HERE IN THE OFFICE. so imagine me typing this with popcicle-ish fingers and shards of ice down my nose.BrRrrR... haha.

been thinking of crashin into the jcs. but.. there's this small possibility of getting caught leh..
oh wait!
..SOUNDS FUN!!! hahaha.
the last time i crashed into SR, me n my contacts arrived kinda late so we were like 'oh shit, the music start ald.WALK FASTER!WALK FASTER! .faster go to the furthest toilet.' and den we quickly rushed to the toilet.let me tell u. we passed by a couple of teachers.but NONE OF THEM CARED we were skipping assembly! BEHOLD! UTTER IGNORANCE!! lol..
i loved the adrenaline rush. haha.wat can i say? im a thril seeker? haha!

ok. i'll end this entry here.im still sian though.
oh wat the heck. i'll sleep la. haha..

Thursday, February 16, 2006
like footprints in the snow, thoughts of her slowly fade away.

sorry and thank you.

u'll always be in my heart.

time is goin past me like a limp old man....
dragging his feet as deliberately as he can...
i try desperately to speed up with hasty hands...
but i realised, the sands of time will still withstand....

i cant take the aggravating effect time has upon me.
in my wake i try hard and long to forget those shadows in my head.
shadows of loneliness, hatred, temptations, regrets, remorse, worries and hurt.
sombre is the mood that fills the air around me.
sadness.

im nervous about the mass comm thing. afraid that they wont have a space for me.
omg. i cant take it. i must get into this. must. hopefully i'll get choosen for the interview.
praying hard.

well.. hope u guys get into your courses as well yea?.
GOOD LUCK! :)

Saturday, February 11, 2006
i just wanna thank... god.family.teachers. n my FRENS!!! wooot!! if not for them dragging me to library to study, i wldnt have known wat shity results i wldve gotten for my Os. hahahaha. my frens in 4e1 are the BEST!! ROCK ON GUYS!! hope we stay together till the end!! oh ya. back to my results.. got a bunch of b3s-eng(nooooooo!), combined humanities, a math(miricles do happen!), physics n chem.. couple of a2s-e math n malay. and last but not least.. an A1!! for my fav sbj..BIO!! hahaha. the credit shd go to Mrs Chan S.M. for supporting me(n letting me sleep in class whenever the lights were off. lol!). N also not forgeting the ppl in my bio lab bench- yuan zheng(for letting me copy your assignment book that time wen i was told to redo. haha.), lene(for making me laugh coz of your constant 'huh ing'), n also justin(for letting me bug u on bio this n thats).oh boon siong too deserve some credit as hes been the one pushing me to study, n ok..also covering up for me wen i slept in class. hehehe.) all in all, got 14 for L1R5 and 11 for L1R4 =) .- THANKS 4 e1 FOR MAKING 2005 SO MEMORABLE!!! hope all of u will go to your dream jc or course in poly! 4e1 2005 RuLeZ!! woot*

Friday, February 10, 2006
SRJC RAWKS!!... yeah right.... its kinda lame actually.
anyway. i attended only 2 lectures yesterday. in phy lect, i saw FAT. she was sittin somewhere with her class. evven though i thought that the whole hour was a drag, i didnt SLEEP!! not lyk some ppl's gf i noe who slept halfway during the lecture.... lol.
So ya. to keep this entry short and simple.. i skipped alot of tutorials but attended the math one. IT WAS A MISTAKE. bcoz of the F-UPed lecturer who sux. so during the whole time, i sat there drawing stuff. so lame. oh ya. did saw this gal. damn cute. hahahaha. wont elaborate here....
so. went bowen aft that and went home. nth much really..... lol.

feelin v scared/anxious/worried right now.....
well...
GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE WHO're TAKING O RESULTS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006
I'LL OFFICIALLY BE CRASHING INTO SRJC TML.
anyone interested to join pls call my secretary...

watched fearless with hanfen, bs and perlyn yesterday. again. bleah. so lame. haha. anyway, we decided to go bowling to kill time, and guess wat?they removed the only bowling alley at orchard ,which was at cine, to make way for this lame cyber place. ok ok. it was rather cool actually.ha. so then the guys wanted to go taka and disturb yz since they were so bloody bored and had this craving to disturb someone. so ya. they all talked to her while i took a stroll somewhere there just to hide my flushed face. anyway. we said our goodbyes and got the hell outta there; next destination-cine. haha. so lame.walked all e way to taka and then walked back. haha. so ya. went to bk to eat and have a chit chat.played a lil tie ti or whatever its called. had lotsa fun!! coz i won alot!! hahahaha!! i must really consider turning pro..hmmm.. Nah... lol.
went to somerset aft that so take NSL.unfortunately, hanfen lost her wallet!! then poor bs and perlyn, who ald tapped their cards, had to go out again just to backtrack to cine. FORTUNATELY for her, we saw one of the BK guys rumaging thru it and so we ask for it to be returned.duh. funny thing abt lost wallets is that once they are returned back to u, the coins wld still be inside. haha. picky. so ya. wen home aft that. ha.

Monday, February 06, 2006
i went to bugis yesterday to eradicate the ever-existing demon called BOREDOM. reached fai's void deck at abt 4 plus. obviously that ass of a guy(like me) is always late. so i wen to mac at hg pt to subdue my annoyance.idiot. anyway we he finally came and we boarded 72 to hg mrt station.upon reachin bugis, we were still a tad bored, so we decided to walk arnd the place, although we were more like limping away actually. so ya. walked arnd, spotted alot of good stuff, bought some,saw yz, and wen ps. we're still damn bored dats y.wanted to watch a couple of movies but the timing werent in our favour.so we decided to pray at al-falah mosque and den decide on wat to do.to our utter dissapointment, all hope was bleak.so we walked to ps and headed home.still bored.

saturday was soooo fun!!!! i got to watch fearless wit farhan r(the asshole) in the afternoon. we met at CP and ya.. i was late..ONLY 2 mins wat. patience is a virtue u noe!! anyway, took train to someset and walked to cine. and guess wat?? Farhan R had this really huge urge to shit!! I was like 'WHAT THE...???...NOW??'. anyway, bein a gd fren dat im, i ran to cine wit him. amazingly enuff, he managed to out-jog me to the entrance coz he was nowhere in sight. fancy the stool in his digestive tract making him run so fast huh.. lol. so anyway. i proceeded to level 4 to buy e tix to fearless. TO MY HORROR...THE BLOODY COUNTER CANT ACCEPT NETS!!! ARGHHHH!!!so i did wat other sensible 16 year olds wld do.. i punched the person's face leaving him toothless, and spewed vulgarities at him in hokkien. YA, I WISHED.... nonetheless i was feelin rather pissed so decided to draw money at B1.unfortunately the stupid atm machine didnt spare me either..aft enterin my designated amt, the bloody machine then tells me that it can only dispense $50 notes. I was damn bloody pissed ok?!!so i just press enter.STUPID THING. so aft that we got our tix and wen to watch fearless.finally. it was, fortunately, nice. haha.
we headed to LJS for our meal n farhan R surprised me again by saying that hes not hungry. WHATS THE WORLD COMING TO???!! but it was for the better i suppose. haha. while we were waitin for the two 'stars' to arrived, my eyes met wit this really cute chinese girl's. she had this tan like athlete's which made her look DAMN HOT ok!!! Omg. cannot take it man..esp wen she DELIBERATELY peered over to where i was sitting .haha. hope she was lookin at me!!hehehe!!*im feelin v shameless*.. i really wanted to ask for her no. and nearly did so too! but unfortunately, i didnt want to be rude and disrupt her meal. so we just walked off, wit me fully in reluctance to do so.. hahahaha.... so ya. the rest of the day was the same as in farhan's or fai's blog.except i didnt manage to catch the last bus at sengkang int.
so i had to take cab home for the upteenth time.waste money.haha.

Friday, February 03, 2006
no words cld justify the awesome-ness of the movie 'i not stupid too(2)'.

..............

..............

..stilll.....

speechless..

U just have to watch it yourself....

U wont regret......

I OFFICIALLY CRANKED UP THE SHREDDING MACHINE TODAY. i got so dissed wit it getting jammed all the time i decided to give it a lil shove. ok. mayb it was abit more like a kick. haha. anyway. i finally got it to work aft wrestling with it for like a min or so, even though i cld see that the STUPID SCREWED-UP CONTRAPTION was still reluctant to do so. in any case, i think the bloody company shd try to get a new one since this one is like sooo out of its time. perhaps me n shredder here shd just have a gooood loooong "man to creation" talk to resolve our issues once and for all. im a man of peace. lol! ok. fine. i'll stop blabbering abt my personal issues right now.. I HATE THAT SHREDDER!!! hahahaha..

Thursday, February 02, 2006
had a blast of a day yesterday!! even though i was down wit fever all nite and mornin, i managed to do sth unimaginable! lol. it all started wen i wen to nadia's to hang out since i didnt wanna stay at home feeling limp and pathetic. so ya. nad took out her recipe books for cookies and cakes and decided to bake sth for her bf. so since we were on the idea of baking, i thought I 'd bake sth for a special someone too! haha. aft much thought, i decided on brownies!! hahaha.not everybody is born a chef though..so bein a lousy chef + clumsy guy dat i am, i spilled the melted choc all over my jeans and shirt!! wat a mess!! lol. the most painstaking part was cutting the nuts into smaller pieces. haha. so ya. aft 3 hours or so preparing and baking those yummy brown pastries, i finally set off to bugis to give them to her personally.. lol. it was a really tiring day, plus being sick made it even worse. but... aft seeing her sweet smile at the end of the day made it all worthwhile.... :)