Saturday, February 25, 2006
i saw sth v disturbing yesterday which made me realise tt voilent families still exist arnd us. i'll explain wat happened so tt u guys can visualize it yourselves. ok here goes.. i was at Jurong pt yesterday as usual to have my lunch.while i was walking towards one of the shops, i saw this malay family.to tell u the truth, this was not your typical happy family.they certainly have issues. ok. wat shocked me really the father was trying to stop his son from crying by carring him on his shoulders like some gunny sack. it was a sad sight.i mean the father was holdin the poor bor by his legs! can u imagine! the poor lad was crying and screaming his lungs out while his livid father was equally shouting at him to stop. tell me. how can your treat your child with such violence?? what has he done to deserve such hate-driven father?? it really heart-aching me just to watch from the sidelines. helplessly. somehow, i can feel the boy's pain. mayb its because i once had such a dad? yea. tts right. not a dad who comes back from work in the evening with a worn out smile on his face n a loosened tie around his neck. No.. all i had was one who wld always come back late at night, in a drunken stupor, wreaking of alcohol, n throwing up every once in a while. yes, tt was the kind of dad i had... i used to remember waking in the middle of the night up n seeing him vormit into this small plastic bag left by mom. i felt pity for him, but at the same time, i was angry. angry at him for getting drunk all the time. i used to ask god 'why cant i have a normal dad like everyone else?' i was sick of getting beaten up for the smallest of mistakes. i was more sick of seeing him beating my mom for reasons unknown to me at tt time. i felt helpless when mom came out crying aft getting beaten up and shouted at. useless dad. she was the only one who wld stand by your side no matter wat happens, and this is wat u do to her?? i felt v small at tt time. i cant do anytin but to shut my eyes and go to sleep and pray to god tt they wont happen again the next day. but they always did. now. aft mom left him, we're a happy family. not a complete one, but certainly a happy one. for years the words 'papa' nerver left my mouth to address anyone. never. haiz.... all tt was in the past. i put tt all behind me. i forgave my dad for being wat he was n thanked him for doing all the things tt he did because they made me who i am today. im v thankful to god. at least i didnt turn out a rich spoilt brat like those u wld see on the streets. good news is, i heard tt he'd turn over to a new leaf. Amin to tt. i just hope tt dads all over the world wont treat their families like mine did. on this note, i shall end my post here.