TAKE A LOOK AT MY LIFE; ITS ALL BLACK
Tuesday, June 05, 2007

TAKE A LOOK AT MY LIFE; ITS ALL BLACK



Black, dark, empty is the abandoned corner of my heart - revisited.

Who is there except for the cobwebs of old tragies and past scars.

While love is everywhere, this is the only part of me, which is totally void of such luxury.

As dark and night, and as empty as space; it just feels cold, lonely - unwanted.

Everytime I find myself here, it engulfs me. All the shelved hatred, pain, anger, jealousy - just to name a few.

Tear me they will, and leave me to rot in this vessel of place which I thought I had forsaken. I don't really care.

It disturbs me inside, knowing that part of me enjoys such company - as tormenting as it is.

Closing the heavy door of the vault, I think twice about locking it up.

Though I know deep down inside, I just want to just lock it up and throw away the key.

But I won't, knowing that some day I might just need a place to cry and let loose.

No, I'm not the perfect example of Happiness. I'm just human. And you know that too.

Trust me, the last thing I want is for you to worry about me.


I just realised what a bunch of bullshit I just wasted my last 15 minutes on.
Oh well.
My heart speaks. And life's been shitty lately. Not as if its the first time.

Where is the love you ask?
Through tainted vision, I can't seem to find it, no matter how hard I try.

I'm just putting too much hope on something. So maybe I shouldn't.

Shit la. Better end this post soon, before anything happens.




just drop roll and die.

@ 11:23 PM

Fan Jay.
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Hospitality & Tourism Management.
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I Simply Rock.


Y

LOVES

Nice white things.
Simplicity
Haivng fun.
Eating ice-cream.
Singing.
Making new friends.
Making people smile.

N

HATES.

Coriander
Waiting
Seeing people frown
Being short
Yada yada yada..
the list goes on..

Y

WISHES.

a backpack.
organizer.
ESPRIT bermudas and pants.
braces.
white ZARA shoes.
GUESS pull-overs.
lose weight. alot.
meet MORE new friends.
MAKE MORE PEOPLE HAPPY!

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{♥} shaz
{♥} sherilyn
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{♥} yiling
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